| Aug. 1st, 2005 @ 03:31 pm Goodbyes are so Hurtful |
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*I FEEL*:  lost
*Music*: "fingerprints of God"
I guess not much but still... a lot. Maybe just a few, but so many. This week has taken me on a roller coaster ride of emotion. I feel sick... and my heart condition increases on strength, i must get that checked out very soon... when i get some money. I talked to my dad after the funeral, he wants to know all the 411 about my mom kicking me out. He wants me to call him. I think i have enough courage but i could use a boost.
I MISS YOU DEVON COME BACK!!!! You were the best friend to us here on earth and probably the best friend i have ever had. I want you to know that if there was anyway for you to read this... That i love you and i understand that it was your time... but im so hurt. To think only a week ago i was lying with you in your bed and we held on tight to eachother crying about the shit in our lives. And now... i have no one to hold me and cry with me... because all i am crying about is you. I miss you. Talk to me, tell me somthing, tell me everything, tell me you are happy. I know you were tho, you would come home from work sit down next to me and talk about melissa and how much she meant to you. And how much your life was begining to make sence. Im glad you got your happiness and all your joy went with you. Because you took the joy from my life by leaving me. You took the smile and the hppiness away, but i will always love you. I will forever keep your secrets, in my heart.. for all time... and forever after that. You were a true man and a man of courage and wisdon. Goodbye Devon Harrison Turner, i must start my healing process, but i will think of you always... guide me. i love you
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